(Y) yesterday was awesome !
that's the photo we took with the host of the show ,
huang hui & ben <:
ben is extremely friendly while huang hui is more of those silent type .
morning got ready & stuff , went to meet ivan at smb mrt then went to bishan
walked around awhile while waiting for mr alan
he took us to mediacorp .
didn't really go in there but went to one of its make up room
saw auntie lucy & one more actor there .
after that went to the mimolette restaurant plus bar .
waited inside the bar . then our turn le , went out fake shoot dinner scene
hahaha funny sia (: so fun there too . the bar has so many wine !
OMG i wished i had a cocktail .
then went to the outdoor scene . then upstairs for the last part .
last part looked like a disco . then ppl dance dance there tgt with mr alan & qiuling
haha i just sat there of course .
thanks Ivan for acc-ing me go out yesterday (:
goodluck with the *ahem* xD
hahaha . fun . hope to go mr alan's actual wedding again ! <:

alright , i'm officially bored to tears !
father's not home so we're not going out .
wanted to go ssc but in the end mum lazy , donw go-.-
got so pissed off by some certain ppl . zzz
anyways , had a good guessing game with kelvin yesterday^^
he's trying to guess what i'll be giving him for third month xD
goodluck guessing ! i told him like one clue only .
congrats to him lorr <: had a kinda weird chat yesterday night with him .
we were talking about next time grow up & everything .
hahaha weird but funny . now i'm so fucking bored ><
he's there playing com & ignoring me again !
sad sad ~ LOL nahh , i got used to it .
well on the bright side , my throat's getting better .
sorta . it still feels kinda dry ~
& (Y) , he's not going back to malaysia <:
but he hurt his leg while playing bball & it looks like pig leg now
according to him ~ . well , i'm bored . bored bored bored bored .
think i should get started on the present alr (:

went out with Kelvin Yap today^^
woke up , text him , washed up & used com awhile
after that went to meet him at mrt station .
haha , went to bishan to walk around for awhile .
ate snow ice there^^ yummy .
then went up to buy the tickets .
after that went to novena to walk walk also
cos still got like one hour plus plus plus till show time
bought gelatiso's ice cream . delicious ! ^^
but ex sia . one scoop $3 . LOL == but nice :D
after that went back to bishan watch our show .
wow , go inside then went siao siao . LOL
was freezing inside ! then the show a little funny too .
just that the ending didn't make sense ._.
someone threw a knife through a girl's shoulder & the girl lived ._.
the show call.. city under seige i think , i forgot .
LOL , had lots of fun with him today ! ^^
(Y) wonder's when's our next movie date ;D

one more day ! ♥

now at keyang house ~

haven't been updating blog for a few days .
well , tmr's the shooting for SDMA talking heads .
most probably 5 - 6 hours .
today had early depart cos asthma attack in school .
went to polyclinic to see doctor afterwards .
waited like bloody hell long canzxc !! .
after that went eat lunch then went back to school for setting up of lights .
fucking pissed off nao . cos of that freaking bastard .
i tried to help but made things worse .
now , it can't be fixed .
so sorry .

to that bastard :
fuck lahh , you got the guts to say no guts to admit ?
don't be an asshole manzxc , come give me attitude ?
you're not even there yet . what did i ever do to offend you ?
you ruined my life . thanks alot -.- everything was well till you came along .
who the fuck asked you to come anyway ?!?!
don't be a coward . admit it if you've done it .
you're just a bloody fucking bastard alright -'-

sorry . i know i've betrayed you . i know you'll never believe me again .
i'm really sorry for what i've done .
i really dontk what else to do other then saying sorry .
if time were to rewind , i wish all this never happened .
i wish we were still as good friends as last time
but i know all this can't happen because of that one mistake i made .
it's a stupid mistake & i could have stopped myself but i didn't .
i'm really sorry . i know you won't talk to me from now onwards .
well , that's my punishment i guess .

things have been downhill ever since that incident happened .
life for me is like shit . no one ever understand how i feel .
there's seriously no one i can rant to .
i really regret . what the fuck was i thinking ?!?!
ohmygosh , i hate myself .
from now on , i'm just going to shut the fuck up .
i'm not going to be bothered about anything anymore .
the more i want to interfere , the worse things get .
so , i'm not going to care anymore .
i swear . that's a solemn promise i won't break .
i'm not breaking promises anymore , i learnt my lesson .

today was fun fun fun !! ^^
went for class first then dad fetch me to safra .
meet up with all & played alot ! ^^
played with cal pool & i won ! with ron's help of course ! :D
went down to 7-11 thrice to get things to eat .
but end up still hungry x:
kelvin&co. came too . they slack slack awhile then left le .
aiyoo ! ms peh saw the ring he bought me ><
die le lah , sure kena disiao by her again !
left early cos got curfew == damper manzxc .
but come back see that shit on her blog .
-'- fuck lah . knn lah you . you think you who ? can scold us like that ?
ask us fuck our mum , you go fuck youself first lah !
done spamming her blog (: feel a little better :D

use to update blog like almost everyday .
now like only almost one week update once .
LOL lazy lah ~
okok so school was as usual .
come back the results all like shit , there goes my phone ):
having chest pains & feeling hard to breathe lately .
dontk is it cos of weather then asthma came back .
tough sia , cannot run much , sometimes feel like dying .
& alot other stuff . lazy elaborate .
today went out after school buy ring with my dearest .
hahaha , so nice^^ hehehe . then went home change , shower .
then went out again . went find kelvin first then slack with them awhile
went off to sp to meet calvin to buy rachael's present .
headed to her house after that . slacked , cut cake & everything
then shian , zhihui , calvin & i went off first .
slack at sp . went eat ice kachang xD
then went home le . tmr having class outing :D
hope parents let me go >< & hopefully gives me money too .
i don't feel like going for class tmr ): haiix i want to quit class le ):
hope i have fun tmr^^ LOL updated ! x)

Yuxuan. ♥
steady ahh <: we seldom talk nao alrd , sad sad ):
sorry for the pass troubles i've caused you .
you know , treating you like that after the breakup :/
i regret it loads & i want us to be able to chat happily like last time again .
hmmm , thanks for the talk yesterday (:
appreciate it loads . talking to you always makes me feel good^^
thanks so much steady ! ♥ !

Sara. ♥
laopo ahh <: you & your horny-ness never fails to make me laugh <:
you always chat with me whenever i'm feeling down or bored .
& give me great advices . thanks many my dearest wife^^
&&, kelvin saw those horny messages you sent me
& he is becoming more & more horny nao ! OMG ,
sara ahh , 教坏他 lei ! hahaha , kidding :D
thanks for the many advices sara ! ♥ !

Calvin. ♥
bio shifu <: hahaha , you taught me many things throughout the whole two years
together with zhihui of course . haha , your knowledge have been passed down
to your tu di alrd ! LOL ! okok , get back to business xD
i know the attitude i gave you last time was very , very , extremely bad :/
yes yes , i know . sorry for it kk ? i know got scar alrd , but i'll try my best to mend it !
any unhappiness with me come tell me alrights ! :D thankyou many many ! ♥ !

Zhihui. ♥
laoge ahh <: long time no chat with you le lei .
you lahh ! everytime play com then donw reply my messages ): sad sad .
LOL haha , kidding ! ;) anyway , thanks for the many heart to heart talks last time .
really can tell you many many things without being afraid you will tell ppl (:
wish we can chat like last time again but don't think it's possible le .
thanks for those memories last time anyway ! had loads of fun with you always ! :D
sorry for the treatment after the breakup :/ treated so many ppl badly . sorry worhh ! (:
thanks for the bio knowledge also horh ! xD xie xie laoge ! ♥ !

Shi An. ♥
xiao di ahh <: why you keep donw tell me what i did wrong ?! hmph ! >:(
haha i sincerely say sorry to you for whatever the reason is .
but i don't think that would help . like zhihui , i hope we can chat like last time again .
about almost everything ! (: but thanks for lending me your ear last time & listen to me talk .
xie xie xiao di ! ♥ !

Darul. ♥
bastard <: hehehe , i gave you that time last time cos you keep calling me psyco bitch right !
hahaha you too , always give me good advices & lend me your ear & hear me complain .
hmmm , sorry for the bad attitude last time :/ very sorry !
hope we can chat at night like last time like that^^
bastard ! ♥ ! xD

done ! who wants more , tell me ! xD i'm off to watch the YOG ceremony again !

(Y) finally have time for dedications .
done alot of reflections myself , know that i've done alot wrongs .
anyways , i swear i'll take time out to write some dedications .
& btw , YOG live is on tv nao .
20min passed & they're only at F .
WOW , i wonder how did calvin they all survived this :/

wow , friday the 13 certainly a bad day for me .
i shouldn't have gone there .
regret it so much . i regretted so many things .
but what's the use , everything's alrd been done .
manzxc , so many problems .
wish things would go back like in sec one , when things weren't so complicated .
haiix , problems one by one .
so frustrated . idk who to trust , idk who i can talk to .
primary school , things were so much simpler .
i can just talk to ppl & i know i can trust them .
secondary school , haiix . complicated .
i thought i had let things go alrd .
but i know now that things still matter to me .
problems piling up one by one . when can they be solved . never , i guess .
school have been rather okay for me . but others , not really .
i really really want things to be back to normal .
this ain't normal for me . i want things back ):
it's obvious , i hope ppl don't see it .

thanks yuxuan for acc-ing me chat (: appreciate it lots .
thanks babe , i know i can count on you ;)
media comm have been rather alright .
SDMA going start soon , helping calvin's group .
make up & some planning . argh , problems problems problems !
i'm really very tired . i need someone else to talk to .
i need someone whom i can confide everything to .