I shouldn`t have trusted Crystal
I trusted her yet she did this to me
I can`t explained how frustrated and disppointed i am with her
I trusted her that`s why i told her everything
Maybe it was my fault for ltting them know each other ?
I can only blame myself for what had happened
I trusted Crystal too much and this is what happened

You have let me down time and time again
Im trying to forget u and start life anew
But it`s easier said den done
I trusted the both of you that`s why i let you two know each other
But yet u two did this to me
I told you the truth but i knew you wouldn`t believe me
I know you won`t believe me but i tried to tell you
In the end you still don`t believe me
nvm.. i can`t face you two anymore
I really have no idea how to face you two anymore
i`ll try to prove what i said was true
But i need time..

ytd had electone exam
went somewhere first den left for Sun Plaza
rushed thr cos my father called and said it was going to be my turn soon
so i ran thr in time took out my things and waited for the examiner to call me in
went in and played the song the examiner chose , Aura Lee
after playing finish played my arrangement
den had sight playing and improvisation
made a few mistakes thr
but the examiner said nvm
den went on with hearing , right hand and chords
right hand played alot wrong cos too nervous
die liao !
den left hand first time played wrong chord but den after tat all correct
dunno how i fared . Need to wait till a few weeks ltr
tiz week no electone cos term holiday
but i wan to go cos i wan to take my mind off some things
now busy stuffing myself with homework and assesments
eventhough having fever
ytd went out tat time sick den today morning had fever
din slp cos scared will think of tat incident again
so trying to stuff myself with all my homework at one time
hopefully i fall ill den no need go sch nxt week
seriously i feel like dying right now
after i die den everything will be gone
no more problems no more anything
it doesn`t pay to be kind
maybe nxt time i shouldn`t trust someone tiz much