From the time we were apart till now ,
I kept thinking to myself .
Why did i change ?
Why wasn't like how i was before ?
Maybe that's the reason why he chose to leave .
I kept wanting him back
Back by my side .
Where he can be mine once again .
But i realised something ,
Loving someone doesn't mean having them by your side ,
It means letting them go & seeing them happy
Seeing him so happy now makes me think that
Maybe i did the right thing for once
By letting him go . Letting him go free .
If keeping him by my side but yet he's not happy ,
I'd rather i suffer alone while he goes freely .
I admit i can't forget him or let him go
But right now , i have to try . It is painful , very painful .
Darul understands right ? Its the same .
Loving you was never a regret but a commitment .
Someone once told me that .
& now , i find it so true . I won't deny the fact that i still want him back
But if he doesn't want , i'm just gonna forget abt it ?
What more can i do ? Now , i've made him mad cos of that stupid mistake .
Why am i always that stupid ? Why can't i think for once ?
Making him mad was one of my fear . Hope he'll forgive me for what i did..
Seeing him happy now makes me think that ,
Maybe he was really unhappy when he was with me .
He had suffered so much when he was with me .
At least he's free now . But i'll still remain tiongxim to him no matter what .
I love you dear ;D I'll remain tiongxim to you ! ;)