today was omg terrible ):
slept with something on my mind .
kept thinking about it the whole of last night..
i don't know what to do at that time .
dawn said i should talk to him ? yea , that's what i did .
but i knew i was going out the next day .
so i met up with ivan only at night .
which was just now .
went out the whole day with that thing troubling me .
i simply can't stop thinking about it .
when i paid my respects to my uncle , grandfather & great grandparents ,
i knew i had to stop thinking . but once we left , i thought about it again ._.
went to jurong point for a small snack , wasn't hungry ,
didn't have appetite either . bought my new computer moniter .
i wanted the Acer touch screen . but my mother didn't allow ):
nevermind , that wasn't what i'm worried about anyway .
walked , shopped , simply wasn't in the mood .
came home , showered & finally , waited for ivan to come .
met him downstairs just now , talked & he keep giving me the answer
how i know , i don't know-.-
if he don't know , how you expect me to know what to do !
but at least he knows about it alr . feel a little bad though .
i shouldn't tell , but i did . cos i was so confused !
damn , donw to sleep with something on my mind again like yesterday .
it was tiring , kept tossing & turning in bed .
i don't really want to go along with what ivan has in mind ,
but if that's what he wants , then so be it . i'll have to tolerate then .
one month . that's all i have to wait right ? i hope not longer..
now the only thing to look forward to , is my stay with dawn .
please let me go >< i really have alot to tell her ! ):

first it's her mother , now it's his father .
i'm really beginning to hate parents..