haven't been updating blog for a few days .
well , tmr's the shooting for SDMA talking heads .
most probably 5 - 6 hours .
today had early depart cos asthma attack in school .
went to polyclinic to see doctor afterwards .
waited like bloody hell long canzxc !! .
after that went eat lunch then went back to school for setting up of lights .
fucking pissed off nao . cos of that freaking bastard .
i tried to help but made things worse .
now , it can't be fixed .
so sorry .

to that bastard :
fuck lahh , you got the guts to say no guts to admit ?
don't be an asshole manzxc , come give me attitude ?
you're not even there yet . what did i ever do to offend you ?
you ruined my life . thanks alot -.- everything was well till you came along .
who the fuck asked you to come anyway ?!?!
don't be a coward . admit it if you've done it .
you're just a bloody fucking bastard alright -'-

sorry . i know i've betrayed you . i know you'll never believe me again .
i'm really sorry for what i've done .
i really dontk what else to do other then saying sorry .
if time were to rewind , i wish all this never happened .
i wish we were still as good friends as last time
but i know all this can't happen because of that one mistake i made .
it's a stupid mistake & i could have stopped myself but i didn't .
i'm really sorry . i know you won't talk to me from now onwards .
well , that's my punishment i guess .

things have been downhill ever since that incident happened .
life for me is like shit . no one ever understand how i feel .
there's seriously no one i can rant to .
i really regret . what the fuck was i thinking ?!?!
ohmygosh , i hate myself .
from now on , i'm just going to shut the fuck up .
i'm not going to be bothered about anything anymore .
the more i want to interfere , the worse things get .
so , i'm not going to care anymore .
i swear . that's a solemn promise i won't break .
i'm not breaking promises anymore , i learnt my lesson .